The devil is winning some pretty major battles in my life
Am not communicating well with mrsjock am getting easily irritated by the cuteness that is littlemanjock, harboring pretty deep resentment about how work is going, not feeling settled or at home in life group or church. All in all a bit pants
This is all at a time when we’re in a sunny climate, collectively we’re earning more money than we ever have and many other positive things are going on.
So why is the devil still winning…. Why do I still sing I can only imagine and wonder if my first instinct on seeing Jesus is going to be to want to punch him in the face!!! E worst thing about that is I was asking Him this and got the distinct impression that he’d be fine with it as long as I’d listen afterwards.
Anyways I really need someone to talk to about this stuff but because of my stupid brain managing to hold the mutually exclusive concepts of a massive superiority complex and an equally massive inferiority complex in my psyche at the same time. Thereby most people I reject as being talkable to about this stuff as they ‘wouldn’t understand’ and the few that I think might wouldn’t want to listen to my ‘boring stories’
I am aware that all of this sounds crazy and probably is and is most definitely not fair in the people that I’m pigeon-holing but there you are, perfectly normal person , person with a God complex and person who feels like a worm all held together in one crazy bundle.
Out all this together with the fact that I can’t seem to look people in the eye during social situations and usually want to run away and you’re left with a whole heap of crazy!!!
