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Famous last words.

some of the last words on this blog were “Still hopefully within a couple of months we’ll see some life in this old town.”

so nearly a year later and we’re only one password protected blog in.

So what’s happened. We’re expecting another mini mcGonzo. God is still on my case and talking to me occasionally (or more accurately i’m hearing him occasionally or maybe even more accurately recognizing that I’ve heard him occasionally) I’ve led worship in the church (as has Mrs McG) we’ve got a great life group and it all sounds good.

except there are times like today that i still feel lonely in church of 400 people, still feel like an awful dad and husband and still feel like i can’t be everything everyone want’s me to be.

No surprises there for anyone i’m sure and there’s a bloke here that seems to have successfully had and got over this issue who i’m spending time with but still feels like a long road and i’m struggling.

Maybe it’s all chemical, maybe it’s all just messed up biology, maybe it’s spiritual or even demonic or maybe i’m just screwed up

hmmmm to password protect or not. We’ll try not for a little while as i’m sure no-one still remembers this little forgotten corner of the internet.

Unpublished post from Feb

The devil is winning some pretty major battles in my life

Am not communicating well with mrsjock am getting easily irritated by the cuteness that is littlemanjock, harboring pretty deep resentment about how work is going, not feeling settled or at home in life group or church. All in all a bit pants

This is all at a time when we’re in a sunny climate, collectively we’re earning more money than we ever have and many other positive things are going on.

So why is the devil still winning…. Why do I still sing I can only imagine and wonder if my first instinct on seeing Jesus is going to be to want to punch him in the face!!! E worst thing about that is I was asking Him this and got the distinct impression that he’d be fine with it as long as I’d listen afterwards.

Anyways I really need someone to talk to about this stuff but because of my stupid brain managing to hold the mutually exclusive concepts of a massive superiority complex and an equally massive inferiority complex in my psyche at the same time. Thereby most people I reject as being talkable to about this stuff as they ‘wouldn’t understand’ and the few that I think might wouldn’t want to listen to my ‘boring stories’

I am aware that all of this sounds crazy and probably is and is most definitely not fair in the people that I’m pigeon-holing but there you are, perfectly normal person , person with a God complex and person who feels like a worm all held together in one crazy bundle.

Out all this together with the fact that I can’t seem to look people in the eye during social situations and usually want to run away and you’re left with a whole heap of crazy!!!

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Tumbleweed

Yup that’s right it’s tumbleweed time again.

Due to some more major life changes i once again have no time to blog.

I am moving the McGonzo family to Dubai, me first them following after and as such until I have the lay of the land over there a bit more and my head has stopped exploding from the 90,000,000 i have to do before I leave in a couple of days, there will be no new posts and a lot of the previous posts have been hidden.

Still hopefully within a couple of months we’ll see some life in this old town.

Until then….

A quick tech interuption

Things have been a bit serious and god related recently so how about some tech…

How in the world did I miss finding out about BumpTop when it was released!

If you haven’t heard of it and are sometimes frustrated by the windows desktop take a look at the video embedded underneath (once I’ve embedded it everywhere)

If you’re not frustrated by the windows desktop still take a look at the video underneath and you might become so.

If you’re watch the video underneath and want the same for the mac, sign up here http://bumptop.com/download.php (bottom right)

Unless I discover I’ve missed something else exciting in the world of tech we shall now return to our regularly scheduled programming

A must read blog

Do you want to
a) have you heart strings pulled
b) increase your compassion levels
c) increase your understanding of what mum’s with disabled children go through.
d) know more about children with cerebral palsy
e) laugh, cry and generally experience emotions on a profound level
f) many more things that i can’t even think of right now

then you want to read the blog of a special young mum and her thoughts about life with her gorgeous girl Elin who is profoundly disabled following oxygen starvation at birth.

visit http://cerebralpalsyjourney.blogspot.com/ comment and encourage her to keep it up.

Ruth’s story is very close to my heart as her Paul, Elin and Caitlin are members of my family and Elin was born the day after me and Mrs. Jockmcgonzo lost our little baby girl. That week it felt like no one was ever going to have a normal birth ever again.

But enough about me, if you’ve read this far that means you haven’t read her blog yet. go do it now. I’ll wait.

Posterous – blog and update cleverly to everywhere at once.

If this does everything it says it can then it should be an incredible success that may only be stopped by google wave. guess only time will tell

Good service … from a phone company

So as i blogged about a few weeks ago i got an iphone from o2 and i loved it, that hasn’t changed but i was gutted this week when the wireless stopped working, a few hours troubleshooting and trawling the web later showed this to be a hardware fault.

Oh no i thought, I’ll have to ring o2 and then probably send it back and be phoneless for a few days. with reticence after deciding on my back up plan (a 4 hour round trip to the nearest apple store) i rang o2 to my great delight and shock, they said yes it was a known issue and they would arrange a doorstep swopout (they send one and i swop my broken one for the new one on the doorstep), great i thought i’ll only need to be without it for one day and make sure someone was in, then as an eternal optimist i asked could the new phone come to my place of work.

“Yes” the lovely lady said.
the next day i have a lovely new iphone and even more reason to stay with o2.

other telephone companies (which will remain nameless) please take note, this is customer service and we like it

Google Wave – will you need another website ever again?

Today, me and my boss and another friend got excited.

what was it that caused this excitement, was it a huge burger (no although that sounds good)
was it a new mobile device (no but it could change the way we use all our current ones)

It was in fact the nearly 90 minute long video about Google Wave.

to sum up a 90 minute video in a blog post is not easy but here goes.

To me (a techy geek but a relative novice when it comes to developing) it seems like in one presentation Google have revolutionised the internet and done it open source.

i can imagine a day where all day long all you need is one webpage, it will (or couuld) bring in your forums, your twitter account, your facebook, friendfeed, youtube, wikis, email and put it all in one place.

It redefines the term instant messaging, no more sitting watching that annoying pencil “xyz is typing a message” you see as they type (warts and all)

want to check your tweets use one of the extensions designed using an open api system and see all your tweets, want to reply, do it on wave, your friends not signed up yet it doesn’t matter it will still show up on twitter in the old fashioned way

Do you use sharepoint at work, or wiki’s to collaborate on documents, projects etc are you sick of finding out that something you want to edit as inspiration has hit is locked by someone who has gone home for the day. Not a problem with Wave.

Seriously this just looks so good, with so many possibilities for extensions that my head can’t even get round a small fraction of them.